Hey guys. It’s been a minute. Just saw The Fate of the Furious with the bro bro. I literally posted an IG Story with a caption that said “date night” but then deleted it cause I felt bad for mysef lmao. … Continue reading
First of all. Drool. Jesse Metcalfe is gorgeous haha. I was definitely a fan of Desperate Housewives, where he plays the hot gardener Eva Longoria cheats on her husband with. Unfortunately, no shirts off in this movie. But he’s literally suited up as Melissa Joan Hart’s lawyer the entire time. So handsome haha. My friend goes, from gardener to lawyer lmao. Truuuuu.
AMC Century City 15 at 10:30pm. God’s Not Dead 2, have I heard of the first one? You bet not. Ha. But I wanted to take advantage of no deadlines this week. I got off work around 9:30pm and my homegirl hit me. She just got out of Mosaic, the church in Hollywood I got baptized at. It sucks cause I sincerely would like to go to mid-week service but I can’t cause of my work schedule. Sigh.
I asked my gay bestie to go and he said he was d but when he got there he decided to see something else. Honestly, so selfish. And I’ma talk shit and I hope he reads this. But he prob won’t bc he only cares about himself lmao. Shirley mad. But more bc if my other girl didn’t come, he would literally left me hanging. Right when I had arrived to the theater too. Ugh I hope karma is real haha.
Okay but honestly it all worked out, I was so glad my girl came. We had a good time, and actually enjoyed the movie. It wasn’t what I expected at all. It was 2 hours and PG haha. I really didn’t think it would be as religious as it was. But it definitely was educational, especially to non-believers. The majority of the film takes place in the court room, that ends up circling back to the argument of the existence of God. V interesting.
Plot: After answering a student’s (Hayley Orrantia) question about Jesus, a high school teacher (Melissa Joan Hart) faces a court case that could end her career.
First of all, I loved Sabrina The Teenage Witch. That show was my ish haha. Thought it was dope she is still acting. She plays a high school teacher teaching 11th grade. That was my prime year lmao. She basically gets in legal trouble for bringing up Jesus in her AP History class. Such a trip. I feel like it’s so easy to find a reason to sue someone these days.
The movie didn’t get the best reviews, but I think you have to have an interest in religion or believe in God to enjoy this film. I genuinely did, and I think so did my girl. God has really been the solution for me lately, so it was nice to see a movie actually push the message about having faith. In fact, before the credits rolled, they state “God’s Not Dead.” Feels.
The theater was empty minus like 3 heads. Two chicks sat a couple rows ahead of us and one of them was literally on IG for a good chunk of time. I was like really???? They disappeared mid movie too. Social media is so toxic guys. Minus Twitter, cause you can just talk shit all day long haha.
My day started out lame. I got to an interview and they literally cancelled when we all arrived. So sus. Who does that. It was a group interview with other USC colleagues. Meep. I got my girl to come to Bar Method with me tho! It was fucking hard today. More than usual. It was also the last day of my Groupon ): I hate how fitness classes actually do depend on my finances and what not. Like, it ain’t cheap haha.
Work was chill. Kinda long. 2 hour groups are hard mayne. Long af. Got the longest day tomorrow. Meep. Time for my sleeping pill.
TRACK OF THE DAY: Can never go wrong with Tory.
You guys…. this movie had me BALLING. Fr. I legit was crying and I haven’t cried in a movie in days. Normally I’ll go into a movie wanting to cry but this time I didn’t even expect it. I read the plot on the Flixster app as the movie was starting and saw it was about a 10 year old girl who gets this rare disease that is uncureable. Obvi, that’s sad. But it’s also based on a true story. Which blew my mind.
First off, I’d like to say, I have a huge problem with miracles. Always have. Like all throughout my faith and journey with God, I always was hesitant with stories where miracles would take place. They’re just not realistic to me and they make me question the whole religion as a whole. Obviously, it’s God’s work, but idk. Maybe I’m just jealous cause I know it will never happen to me idk. But if it’s not realistic, it makes me think the whole thing is phony.
Disclaimer, clearly I’m struggling with my faith rn. I feel like a lot of bad things have happened this year, continuously. Of course, I have no one to blame but myself, but it’s just like can I get a break? Fr just one break.
Okay back to the movie. First of all, Jennifer Garner is seriously so beautiful and such an amazing actress. She kills this role. She’s the mother of 3 girls…and has a very loving husband. It takes place in the South, Texas to be exact, and the scenery is literally so beautiful. Anyways, one of her daughters has this disease where she can’t process food and no doctor can seem to fix her. She was on track to die.
There’s no spoiler alert bc it’s in the title, but honestly this movie is so emotional. It was really good. It had me literally crying. Some parts were so touching mayne I swear. I was very humbled at the end.
Oh I saw A$AP Rocky at The Grove at the Apple Store. My phone’s been fucked up but who was I to walk in without a Genius Bar apt. Glad I did bc Rocky’s presence is just so… drool haha. So funny cause the white dude I was speaking to, who was greeting people as they walked in, had 0 idea who he was. I was like…. bruh haha.
Anyways. Lord Pretty Flacko was NOT having it today haha. Literally he was posted with one of his homies, who literally looked like he was his bodyguard. Maybe he was. He was standing with his arms crossed like he was protecting Rocky. But a couple teenage boys were trolling trying to take a pic and Rocky rejected them hard. He like put his hand out to block them using their phone and kept apologizing saying “not today.” V interesting haha. Honestly tho, celebs can’t go anywhere without getting harassed. It’s crazy.
I was on a high off that then stopped in Dylan’s Candy Bar to get my best fran from home a chocolate bar. AND THEN, my car got towed. There’s literally nothing worse than walking up to where you parked and seeing your car gone. Trust me. Few things in life suck more than that haha. I legit have been parking across the street at K-Mart for idk how long. Usually late at night tho… when they clearly dgaf. During the day they got people literally patrolling the parking lot. I shoulda known 😦 I’m so sad honestly.
The worst part is, when I called, they said they close at 5pm, then it’s after hours fee. Yo, I legit called an Uber and arrived literally at 5:03pm. Like really?! LA traffic was insane and the driver was literally trying his best. It was $270 to get my car back as opposed to $180. Who the fuck comes up with this shit? And who approves it. Man. Towing companies have to be rich af cause that’s so fucked. My heart hurt.
Later, I almost miss my flight home because I call an Uber pool. And then I find out the saddest news ever. The people in my pool were really cool and they were getting turnt for St. Patty’s Day (legit forgot). But we were all complaining about our day so I asked why theirs was rough.
Literally, they told me this construction worker fell off a building and splattered. SPLATTERED like wtf. If you know LA, they’re currently building the tallest building in the US, west of the Mississippi. So he was working on that. The worst part is, they dunno if he jumped or not. Bc he didn’t have on a harness. They were working ACROSS THE STREET. How tragic is that? Sure made my problems seem like shit. My heart couldn’t take much more at that point. Idk. I’m soft. Feel like there’s been a lot of suicide talk lately and I’m not with it.
I couldn’t sleep on the hour flight home, at all. And I usually knock out. I think it’s just my subconscious sigh. I’m so anxious. My dad swooped me from SJ airport, because I think that’s the only time he cherishes and the only time I see him. I feel bad. I really need to… step it up. In all aspects of my life. Real. Talk.
Went to my best fran’s after in hope he could fix my phone. Fail. Have to go to Genius Bar. Raise your hand if you hate the Genius Bar. Me. He just moved into this dope spot in San Jose tho. It’s so glorious haha I seriously love it. He took me home and we bumped Ultralight Beam by Kanye and it sounded SO GOOD IN THE WHIP. That is all.
TRACK OF THE DAY: Azizi Gibson’s new track goes.
I honestly was not present for this movie at all lmao and it was 2 hours long. The Young Messiah at The Grove at 9:40pm with gay bestie. I hit up Bar Method at 7:45pm and that was the earliest … Continue reading
This movie made me feel so weird. So uneasy. So weird haha. My gay bestie wanted to see The Witch, but this was sooner. And I had ADD so I wanted to go sooner. Shoutout to him for bearing this … Continue reading
I really want this post to be about the bible study I went to tn, but I’ma follow suit and just title it with the movie I ended up seeing haha. Let’s knock that out of the way haha. Shoutout … Continue reading
GUYS. I got baptized today. It was honestly so surreal and probably one of the best decisions I’ve made in my life. It wasn’t easy either. It took a lot for commit. I felt so bad… I had bailed about 3x before I finally was just like, DO IT SHIRLEY. I just felt like I was annoying them, but that’s my own insecurities and worries taking over. Even more of a reason to do the damn thang.
I went to Mosaic in Hollywood. It’s a non-denominational Christian church, and every time I go, I never regret it. My friends brought me here a while back, and I can’t say I’ve been the best at attending. Many asked me today how long I’ve been coming, and it was honestly very hard to admit I haven’t. I joined a kickball league in the summer, and that was my excuse. As I usually do, I tried to make light of the matter and bring humor into the situation to avoid facing reality.
I cried on my way over. I was pretty anxious. I knew I was only going to be worse when I got there. It’s been a long, long journey with God. My parents put me in Christian private schools my whole life, and the religion itself has been engraved in my brain. Going through life and its struggles, I’ve fallen off my walk with God too many times to count. Somehow eventually, I find my way back. My issue was I was angry. I would blame him for all the things that were happening to me, when in reality I was only a victim of my own sins. I have a handful of friends who care a lot about me and have always told me God is the answer. When they would tell me that, I would get so mad at them. They would tell me to pray, and I’d be like, “I’m talking to nobody!”
Okay let’s get to the point. I believe God is the Savior and I need to put all my faith in Him. It isn’t about religion, or how you glorify being a Christian. It’s not about going to church every Sunday, and it’s not about living a perfect life. It’s about believing in Him and asking for forgiveness. I used to hate my parents and blame my crazy strict high school on how I turned out. I acted out and I rebelled. This lead me down a very dark and lonely path.
I understand not everyone agrees with this idea of God existing, and I understand the doubts. The fact of the matter is, I was blessed to be exposed to such positive morals and values. While most may be common sense, the things I’ve learned have molded me into the strong, caring, female adult I am today. It’s about being the best person you can be, and living a life you can genuinely be proud of. Nobody is perfect, and everyone makes mistakes. God always gives you a second, third, fourth chance.
The people at Mosaic are literally nothing short of amazing. While I looked lost, as I was, everyone there was so helpful and quick to offer a helping hand. The reassurance we were given that everything was going to be okay was beyond what I needed. The pastor Rachel who did my baptism, her energy, mayne. I can only strive to be her. She impacted my day more than she’ll ever know. Just so much love, kindness, and positivity, without even trying.
I honestly feel like the baptism itself went by so fast. Before I knew it I was in the water. Also felt like I was numb for some reason. Oh yeah, started crying when the girl in front of me went. When the doors opened and exposed those of us getting baptized, I saw my friends in the crowd. In that moment, I was so thankful. The fact that they took time out of their Sunday to share such a special moment with me was everything. Shoutout to my LA fam, you girls are my rock.
Driving home, for the first time in my life, I felt at peace. For the first time in a long time, I felt okay. I felt like I was going to be okay. I really had to just cherish the feeling and hold on to it. I’m very quick to go into a negative space, no matter how hard I try not to. I called my best friends from home and shared the news and told them I loved them.
Currently about to go volunteer at an event tonight with the VMA’s. I honestly have no idea what it is, and it’s taking a lot for me to not just crawl into bed. Say no to naps.
“My name is Shirley. Jesus is Lord. And I’m ALL IN.”
TRACK OF THE DAY: Honestly, I’ve always been concerned about the negative stigma associated with rap music. Especially me, who lives, breathes, and sleeps this current wave of hip hop. It’s hard not to get judged when you hear the most ignorant lyrics and you see someone who just thrives off it. Honestly, it is no reflection of how I live my life. I really just appreciate the music in itself and the production behind it.
Here’s a breath of fresh air. Evidence is a dope MC from Los Angeles and part of the rap group Dilated Peoples. Saw this track in a tweet from a writer at DX. Don’t ever forget the good times. Stay up fam.